Trials

Light At the End of the Tunnel

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You are either in the middle of a difficult season, just got out of a difficult season, or you are about to enter a difficult season.

I’ve heard a lot of pastors say some version of this over the years, and it’s true. There are so many metaphors for hard times. Maybe you’ve been in a dessert, valley, storm, darkness, tunnel, or any other word to describe a painful place. We’ve all been there, or are in the hard place right now.

I am still in a difficult season but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. That light gives me hope as we journey out with Jesus leading the way. At times it has been dark and I could not see anything in front of me. It was all unknown, but Jesus has always known the outcome. He said “Trust me”.

Yesterday the hospital bed was picked up from our house by the medical supply company. Tom (my husband) has been using the stairs again, and he’s getting better going up and down. It’s still very painful but at least now he’s not crawling up the stairs. Blessings. I count every single blessing each day, no matter how small.

As I look back on these months of sickness, hospitalizations, catheters, surgeries, drain tubes, piles of prescriptions, endless doctors visits, labs, and pain, a lot of pain, I see God’s grace. His mighty hand has guided us through these mirky waters. And He is still guiding us as we don’t have every single thing completely resolved. As hard as that is, that’s alright.

I don’t like not knowing what’s going to happen. I am a planner to the core, and that doesn’t work very well as a Christ follower. I have learned time and time again over the many years of being a Christian to “Let go, Let God”. Simple yet true, and very difficult for me to do at times.

God is always faithful. He has carried, provided, encouraged, and healed us. God is a perfect loving Father as He has cared for our every need. No, He did not just make it all go away. God made a way through it, which has tested and stretched our faith.

In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. 1 Peter 1:6-7, NIV

If it’s dark for you right now, hold on to Jesus. He is the way out. There is much to learn in the hard times. Your faith will grow as you follow Jesus. He can see what you cannot, and some of it you just don’t need to see. There is light at the end of your tunnel, and it’s beautiful.

Love you all,

Meghan

Father God,

You are awesome, holy God. I lift up those who are in the difficult places right now. They can’t see and they are afraid. Encourage them. Remind them that they are never alone. Carry them and help them see You through it all. Provide for their every need, and make a way out as they follow You. Give them peace.

In Jesus name,

Amen

Family, Trials

There’s Always Hope

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The first morning glory of the season greeted me bright and early today in the garden. It’s fun to grow a new variety like these gorgeous pinkish purple ones. Tom gave me these seeds among others at Christmas. I love watching seeds sprout, grow, and eventually flower. It’s very rewarding.

A new flower gives me hope. My garden is no longer a brown desolate wasteland. Now it’s full of new life. Vegetables, herbs, flowers, and fruit are thriving. I didn’t have much hope of planting anything just a few months ago. I didn’t think I would have a garden this year with Tom’s hospitalization and health issues.

God brings hope and blessings in the midst of trials.

Since you all have graciously followed along on our journey of my car accident, and Tom’s hospitalization, and a lot of unknowns, I wanted to give you a little update. Tom had his hernia surgeries yesterday. I sat in the surgery prep area with Tom as nurses came and went asking questions, taking his vitals, and getting him ready.

The anesthesiologist came in, looked over Tom’s blood draw results, and was very concerned with his kidney function. He let us know that Tom is high risk, and rattled off a bunch of potential really horrific things that can happen going under anesthetic and having surgery. My heart sank. Fear whispered in my ear, “something bad is going to happen to Tom“.

Tom was not worried and reassured me that he will be alright. I told fear to take a hike, like forever. The Holy Spirit said to me, “I’ve got Tom. Do not fear“. It was another faith test. I could not see the end result and I was told awful scary things. But God said, “Keep trusting Me“.

The surgeon stepped in the room and went over the anesthesiologist’s serious concerns and asked Tom what he wanted to do. Tom told him that he felt good, and healthy, and that he was ready. The surgery was a success and went better than the surgeon expected. That’s a big praise.

Tom came home last night. There are all sorts of tubes and pumps in his three large incisions. He’s in a lot of pain, no surprise there. He’s been very nauseous and thrown up several times. Sorry if that’s too much info. Gotta keep it real. You have to go through the hard ugly stuff to get to the good.

Today is a new day with new hope just waiting. New opportunities for God’s grace and mercy are here. I’m praying Tom will have less pain today on his path to healing. I’m still praying for his kidneys to completely recover.

The Lord can breathe new life into anything. What appears to be a lost cause can be fertile ground for new life, for hope.

We stand on The Rock. We trust God to completely heal Tom. Through the ups and downs God is faithful. Thank you so much for your prayers!

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15:13, NIV

Love you all,

Meghan